@sheanicolekensek

6 months ago

Ohhhh Kim… I kid you not I asked for this video. I did something that I truly thought was for me, but hidden deep down I was looking for validation of my 3D. In the end saw something I did not like, made myself sick, nauseous and upset… got home from work, cleaned out the kitty litter, fed my cats, put my leftover soup on the stove to heat up. Walked into my bedroom, sat in the middle of my bed, closed my eyes and literally broke down and asked my higher self, god, my I amness, whatever to tell me what the fuck to do… to give me a fucking sign, movement, my manifestation, ANYTHING… because I desperately needed something. To zhuzh me, to get me to the right state, to get me to anything that would help me. I seriously must have looked like a crazy person in my apartment talking to thin air… but I feel like I got to this “I’m tired of this fucking shit” feeling, but still determined that I’m going to have what I want AND with the expectation that I would get my answer, my zhuzh, my something. So I grabbed my soup, turned on True Blood (been rewatching it since our last session) and just been trying to focus on the show, detach from my 3D and negative thoughts (literally telling myself NOPE we are NOT doing this, I am NOT going marinate in the shit I’ve seen tonight), not think about anything unless it’s me telling myself that I am the version I choose to be (because that’s the ONLY thing I can stomach doing right now because I am not feeling ANY techniques tonight) and as i’m watching my show I just wanted to see what time it was and saw that there was a red bubble with the number 3 on my YouTube app. And I tapped on it, went to my notifications and saw your beautiful face with the fucking answer I needed. Thank you Kim! I knew I was looking for validation, and because of that saw things I did not like, but here we are and my universe, my higher self, my I amness gave me EXACTLY what I needed to hear through you. I’m not a 100% feeling better but I know I’m on my way. And I know I may not understand what I saw, why I saw, or why this thing would pop up in my 3D after I feel like I’ve been in a great place, but I know it will not deter me… and just gave me more motivation to detach and stay detached. I’ve deleted my instagram again and I’m just done with this 3D, and nothing and no fucking 3rd party or anything is going to fucking stop me I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL!! I’m going to have this manifestation even if it fucking kills me. Love you Kim and all you HBIC’s and I love this community. I love you all!❤

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