@mars-hu5yn

3 years ago

hey dude. a few weeks ago we were waiting outside after school, you told me this was your favorite song. that weekend, i was cleaning my room and put this song on. then replayed it. then again and again and again. you know, i’ve heard that when you like someone for over six months, you never really stop. i bet that’s bullshit, but i don’t know when i’ll stop liking you, because your laugh is too contagious and your eyes are so inviting and homey and your taste in books is just immaculate. music, too, i guess. i stopped liking you for a while, but i missed you during quarantine. then we went back to school and you were just so... you. and i couldn’t help it. you’d never like me, so i guess i’ll just watch from afar. emma likes you too. she never told me but she’s pretty damn obvious about it. i saw her face the day you accidentally pulled off your shirt w your hoodie, or the way she giggled in a huddle when you shoved every book you had into your backpack and asked me to carry it. date her if you’d like. i don’t see why you would want to. i’m not saying that because i’d expect you to date me. no way in hell would you ever like me when you could have any girl on the planet. emma just isn’t the best person. she laughs about me behind my back. she’s pretty bad at hiding that too. but maybe you do too. but have a nice day. you weren’t in class today. i hope you’re well. update 1: you came back to class. nice to know you’re not dead. we sit next to each other again. when mrs. h was switching seats while screaming at us for never shutting up, i said a secret prayer you would end up in the vacant desk next to me. and you did. remember when we used to sit next to each other in sixth grade? and when our arms would touch as we wrote and you wouldn’t even notice or when we did that organ system poem and we made fun of the pictures in the books? i do. i’ll never forget the day we had to do that project where we looked at our table partners pupils to see if they dilated. i don’t think they did. but your eyes are a nice brown, same color as your hair. full of life and happiness and god i love your eyes. you don’t because your vision is ass and you have to wear those glasses but honestly? they look great on you.

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